The story of my life begins in Vietnam, I am told that I was an orphan, and that I was evacuated from my homeland in 1975, at the end of the war. I was an infant on the plane that crashed, not even two months old. But who knows, all has been a mystery to me, I am thirty now.

What I know is that I am a survivor, physically, spiritually and mentally, I have spent my whole life in conflict, trying to live as an American in a world that my soul could not comprehend, I didn't even realize the concept of what it was to be Asian until I was in my twenties. An entire culture that I was unaware of, a language that I didn't speak, a family that I didn't have, my heart weighed heavy for most of my life, missing these things and not being able to express them to my adoptive family.

I am told that after I survived the crash, I was flown to the U.S. and that the pilot found me on the plane in San Fransisco, CA. I had a wristband bearing the id code of B3211 and the name Tguian Thai Thau Lan. But whether or not this is true, I do not know.

My adopted father was a Marine in Vietnam during the war, we were never close, as I grew up I had resentments toward him for various reasons.I alienated myself my whole life.

Other Vietnamese and Asians didn't receive me, because I didn't speak the language or have knowledge of my homeland, or culture, I hated being Asian in America, because I wasn't, my birthname changed, so I could be raised as an American girl, i felt a disgrace to my people, I hated myself for who i was raised to be for a very long time.

I never thought about the possibility that my mother had loved me, or that she had tried to give me a better life, I thought of myself as one alone in the Universe, but as I grew older the desire to know the truth had set in, to know where I come from, my people's beliefs, their legacies, I felt I had been cheated, I have tried to find my family, tried to get answers but I am afraid there are none to be had, Iam glad that this is here for me to express myself. I am Katy Marie Ebbert, but really I am no one, I am a Cosmic Child.